Forever 33

In a few days, it should have been your 34th birthday and our 5th anniversary as a couple. This time last year, I was busy thinking of what to give you as a gift and researching for recipes for the family celebration. This year, I am still busy – busy trying not to think of … More Forever 33

100 days after

It has been more than 100 days since you left, and it still hurts like the first day. I have traveled almost 10,000 miles away from our home, hoping that distance would help ease the pain, but I have discovered that no matter where I go, grief and pain accompany my every step. I think of you every day, with … More 100 days after

This Christmas

I still can’t believe that I’ll be spending this Christmas without you. I have pushed this thought at the farthest and darkest corner of my mind for as long as I can, but as Christmas draws near, I find it harder and harder to postpone not thinking about it. In a few days, I will … More This Christmas

Two months

Two months. Two months since I have last seen you breathing. Two months since I last kissed your cheek. Two months since I last held your hand. Two months since I last hoped, since I last dreamt of a future with you. Two months since I last felt genuine joy and contentment. Two months since … More Two months

Thank you

Today, I woke up with so much gratitude in my heart. I whispered thank you to the air hoping that my husband is listening, wherever he is at this time. Thank you for being the best friend one could ever have. Thank you for patiently waiting for me until I was ready to love again. … More Thank you